Sunken and Stranded

Myriad things i want to do
Spontaneous i want to be
But not at the cost of what 
I am trying hard to not be

They say I'm living my life great
But I fear a future with regrets.
There is still no grip of 
What i really want to perfect

I feel like I'm trying
But i can't quantify any.
I know my Achilles heel 
That's killing my zeal

I am embarrassed to admit 
I've not progressed one bit
A fulfilling life i seem to dilineate
But deep inside I'm insecure and diffident.

I want to change this now 
But I'm still feared by the 'but how's'
I want this haunted feeling to end 
For too long now I've been feeling 
Sunken and stranded.

Better the bitter life ...

What do you do,

When you once again feel the world's turning its back to you?

You know you've got to be brave -

Remember?, you've preached that life will pave.

But now? It's so hard to face.

So broken. So hard to braze.

'Why does it happen only to me?', you say ...

Forgetting that No one has it their merry way.

The moment is so weak, it kills all your past zeal

If you could just gain some strength to gather

What you'd say to a friend trying to break similar waters,

You could make yourself feel better.

And remind yourself how Life is less sweet,

More bitter ...